A disease called perfection

I know full well that photography and other creative industries are extremely competitive. In fact, I am reminded of that every time I have to give a price estimate.  The law of Supply and Demand applies to photographers just the same that it applies to those who make widgets.  The more skilled you are, the higher your standards, the more you can charge, etc…  I think everyone understands that, yet, lately I’ve seen the inverse of this among self-proclaimed newbies and amateurs.

I had a conversation with an aspiring filmmaker who promised his crew that he would never make a film that wasn’t excellent.  Another guy recently asked me some pointed questions about how to maintain his “extremely high standard of quality.”  When I stop and think about it, I realize that I too was at one time guilty of this disease called “perfection.”

In our zeal to pursue something that is creative, fun, and challenging; many of us are too afraid to fail that we rob ourselves of opportunities to learn from our mistakes. Now that I look back at my own beginnings in photography I realize that I was doing myself a disservice.  Instead of taking risks and basking in the freedom to fail I too often played it safe, or worse, pretended to be a professional so that I could land a big client.

Why is it that we are always in a hurry to get somewhere?  As kids we can’t wait to grow up and drive the car, go to college, or get married.  As a young professional we spend so much time trying to prove ourselves to others.  I think we’d be much better off if we shed the burden of success and realized that failure is inevitable. If we viewed mistakes as a chance to learn something then we might actually make something truly excellent some day.

Don’t let perfect be the enemy of good enough!  Inspire others with the things you do now –not the things you’re going to perfect some day.  Try something creative and don’t worry about the results.  Just learn from the experience and enjoy the process! After all, that’s probably why you got into photography/music/art in the first place.

Creative Lighting Failure: Christmas Lights

Ever since I first watched the behind-the-scenes footage from Lord of the Rings I’ve wanted to try an idea.  I heard that they lit this scene with Christmas lights to give it an ethereal feel, so I bought over 2,000 Christmas lights in hopes of using them for a photo shoot.  For over 2 years they sat in my closet collecting dust.  Finally in July I decided to give it a shot.

I wanted to go big and do it up right, so I set a date and got five friends on board to help.  Two models, two assistants, one videographer, and me; tethered shooting, video documentary, and a controlled environment.  No elves, sorry.  I only had a vague idea of what I wanted to do, but I knew I wanted to create some elegant, mood-lit photos.  I was excited and even a bit nervous.

We got together and began to set up; all the while I kept hoping for a spark of inspiration. And then…

nothing happened.

Nothing worked the way I wanted it to.  I got frustrated and disappointed.  I felt like I let my friends down and wasted their time.  It was a difficult learning experience for me, and I realized that I still have so much to learn.

My Moleskine that night looked something like this:

  • I need a clear idea of what I want to accomplish.  My objectives were too broad and non-descript.
  • Do more researching and testing of the ideas on a smaller scale before taking on something with so many variables.
  • Try only one new thing at a time. I wanted to do this shoot with awesome light bokeh, starry catchlights, video documentary, and tethered shooting.   …and I’ve never successfully done any one of those.
  • Keep the morale up. I got frustrated and disappointed, and it showed.  My photos weren’t as good because of it, and I felt like I let my crew down.
  • I re-watched the BTS clip from Lord of the Rings and discovered that they only used Christmas lights to give Galadriel the starry catchlights in her eyes –not to light the entire scene.  BIG difference…
  • Distance (from camera to subject to background) + focal length + aperture = size of bokeh. I need a lot of distance (maybe 150 feet from camera to background) and maybe a 300mm or 400mm telephoto lens (or 50mm 1.2) to get the size bokeh I wanted without having to take an extreme close-up.
  • The tiny Christmas lights really don’t put out enough light to be useful for lighting your subject.  I need Christmas lights with the screw-in bulbs.
  • I need to rig up a sort of Lite-Brite array of Christmas lights to create patterns for the catch lights.  I’m envisioning a large donut shaped rig to shoot through so that the subject’s eyes will have a sparkly ring to ’em.


All things considered, I’m glad we did it.  I procrastinated for far too long, and it felt good to finally make it happen.  I’m glad it didn’t go as well as I wanted it to because if it did I might still think I know what I’m doing.  The longer I go without some sort of failure the harder I fall when it does happen.

BIG thanks to: Tom and Alana Puskarich, Graham and Sara Marsden, and Jeremy Sexton.  Thanks for all the laughs and encouragement along the way!  I’m extremely grateful to have supportive and creative friends like you guys!


We did come away with a few photos worth sharing; you can find ’em here. Keep your ear to the ground for rumors of the next Christmas light shoot.  I’ll get it right yet!